pain goes on and on

We have spoken at length this week to lady from bbc and to another lady sadly in same boat as us, and it is so very very hard.

We think of you Mollie and we love you, it is so cruel for Grand dad and myself  not to be able to see you and your little sister.

As I type this I have photo of me holding you when you were few weeks old with a very serious expression on your face, you were a lovely baby with big blue eyes which Mummy said were because y our Daddy had blue eyes and so do I your Nannie.  Your mummy was always one with a reason for things.

We can find no reason for the cruel way she has shut us out of your and her life and we hope and pray that one days things will change before it is too late.

Our little pet Rosie who Mummy did love is having another operation on Monday.

We are having all sorts of work done to our house, we only wish we could have the fun of sharing it with you, Daisy and Mummy and Daddy.

I expect you are at nursery school now, and we cannot even imagine how you look it breaks our hearts please be assured we will always love you.

affect so much

Today someone asked me to do their grand daughter nails - I am afraid that would be too painful when I have a beautiful grand daughter I am unable to see. One day I hope I can do your nails Mollie, I expect you like girly pretty things or are you a tomboy?

You are nearly 4 now and I expect you are at pre school and i hope you enjoy it.

Is it lovely having a baby sister?/

We love you and miss you so much darling.

Happy Easter to our little gran daughters

Happy Easter Mollie and Daisy,  Grandad and I hope you liked the cards we sent you and that Mummy got you a nice easter egg with the money.

It cuts into us like a knife that we have never me you Daisy, but we are here and we are your Nannie and Grandad and we love you and Mollie very much.

We also hope you got the card we sent you Mollie from our holiday we thought you would like the picture of the Meerkat.

It is 3 years now since we have seen you little Mollie but your photos fill our house still and we hope with all our hearts to see you again and meet your little sister.

Be happy all our love Nannie and Grandad Johnson xxxxxxxxxxxx